Rough Day.

Today was a rough one (So excuse this quite negative post)

One of those days that you just wish you had so much more energy than you do.
.. where you wish everything was perfect and nothing was wrong with you!

SOooooo frustrating.

Silly old me booked an appointment for an iron infusion at the hospital for early this morning forgetting that the night before it was medicine time. And Silly old me thinks that I can get through it anyway. Just pop the kids on the train with you and once you are at the hospital you can just try and keep the kids in check while you've got a needle coming out of your arm...Then after the infusion I'd just jump right back on the train and somehow make it back in my post avonex and infusion state...

I'll be fiiiiiine... that's my motto ;-D!

Sometimes I do have to get a clue... sometimes it's not fine. 
And sometimes you even need help!
SHOCKER!! 

Today was one of those days. 

My dad picked me up and dropped me off at the hospital, where my mom then took over and helped out with the kids. I ended up not getting the infusion, but that wasn't the point.

It wasn't easy, but I got help.
I am still struggling with the idea of needing help.
That I'm vulnerable somehow.

BUT at the same time I feel that I finally have an explanation for the exhaustion and fatigue I have been feeling for such a long time. And somehow that is comforting. 

Had a long chat with my mom today about what I was finding hard, and it was nice to vent! Feel loads better emotionally, and am on the mend after my medication as well. So hopefully I'll be on top tomorrow :-)!

So yeah, I doooo have my bad days... :-)!



On a more positive note... I have the most amazing kids and husband! They fill me with so much love and they are the reason I get up in the morning! I honestly don't know how I would have coped if it wasn't for the motivation to stay strong for them. SO I am ending this post with some pictures of them. 

-Josefine